Tinder Ouch

Truth hurts so much more than I can even imagine. I actually paused so many times trying to write this so here we go. We met on tinder. It's an apps where you can choose who you like and when you liked each other you can start chatting. So did we. The whole time I didn't know that he was in a relationship. He said that she was his best friend so i don't mind. And then we carry on. Things we did was way too embarrassing for me to write here so just assume that we did something that had crossed the line. That even a couple should've done that. Just now I was bored that I scrolled my instagram. Then I saw his ig isn't private anymore so i stalked. I saw his girlfriend's photo. They never broke up they've been in a relationship for two fucking years and maybe more. What the hell was he thinking. I don't care about me. I care about her. What would she feel when she knows that he was cheating on her? He cheated because she was so far away in Ireland. Ya allah what have i done forgive me for my sin i swear i didnt know. I hope she's fine.

Queen of Fling

Good morning sleepy heads...
Once upon a time do I believe in love at first sight, second chances, Prince charming what the... but now that I'm awake and sober those things are just phases that I needed to grow the fuck up and realize that love does not exist. It never does.  All the guys I've been with were just a rebound to each other and never more than just a fling. I never had a real relationship. Well, I have. A couple times. But then we screwed up. It scares me that I'm 19 now and I'm still playing with my feelings wasting my time on someone that simply not worth it. I'm scared that when I grew older and wiser and more mature I might stop looking for love because I've had enough of fake ones these past years. This is a matter that concerns me so much but I can't talk to someone because no one understands. Why am I emotional now... xoxo 🙇

Ex Trash

I don't understand why is it so hard for him to get over me like come on its been months already. I could care less about him still checking out on me but can you just stop spreading bad things about me stop trying to make people think that I'm bad you're the one who's a jerk you never appreciate what people have done for you and when they leave you you make them the bad guy and then wonder why you don't have friends like what???? Do you not see yourself?? I honestly don't understand what's the fucking matter with you you're such a fuckery fuck I've ever known in my whole existance. Please grow up. I hope you found someone that cares for you so that you stop wasting your time on me because whatever you did I'm not coming back for you. Ever.

Clean Slate

Holla!
Maybe happy ending only do exist in fairytale after all because my love story just ended.. I actually thought that this one is going to work. He left just like that without saying what went wrong and stuff. I assumed he do has someone else that's why he was always weird. I'm glad this ended now before things gets pretty much serious. Atleast i can still move on.. well kind of? Its okay its just another fling whats life without a fling. Serena Van Der Woodson took more fling as I can imagine to finally be happy. It won't take any longer for me too to finally meet the right one and be happy 😊 God bless xoxo

Killed Two Birds With 1 Stone

My oh my..
I think I just lost two important man in my life. My boyfriend & my friend. I just don't know what I want in my life. When I don't have it I swore with my life to take care of it once I had it but when I actually did I screwed up.. all the fucking time. Well, I don't actually screwed up with my boyfriend because if he wasn't proud to have me then why stay he's simply not worth it but my friend.. I think I just scares him away. I mean woahh.. bleeding? Of course it scares him! What the hell am I thinking. But yeah again, if he's worth it he'll come around. Now i have to ace my law paper tomorrow morning. Wish me luck! Xoxo

Devil Devil..

The whole school knows that me & S are close since last semester (when I first got in). But what we didn't know is someone is watching with hatred. I can't imagine how plenty of time she has for lurking on me & S. First, you got my car scratched. Second, you stalked my boyfriend. Third, you blakcmailed me. What's next whore?   Bring it on. Xoxo. 

Yay or Nayy

I knew my boyfriend from instagram. He saw me on explore and he followed me. Turns out we go to the same school and we bumped into each other but at that time he wasn't sure that it was me. After a few days (we were on a short break) he dm-ed because I replied to one of his comment. Then we started talking. He sent his grandfather off to the airport then he decided to came by my house and checked up on me. So from that day we texted all day and night until we finally meet at school.  We when on a date and then not long after that we define the relationship (I know its too early *roll eyes*) but now I think that he have someone else. Because he refuses to meet me in public and posts my picture on instagram I mean it's obvious isn't it. Im tired of being in a wrong relationship. I want something real. I dont want to be a secret girlfriend anymore i mean was it that bad to have me as girlfriend f*** him.  Should I broke up with him or stay and wait?