Queen of Fling

Good morning sleepy heads...
Once upon a time do I believe in love at first sight, second chances, Prince charming what the... but now that I'm awake and sober those things are just phases that I needed to grow the fuck up and realize that love does not exist. It never does.  All the guys I've been with were just a rebound to each other and never more than just a fling. I never had a real relationship. Well, I have. A couple times. But then we screwed up. It scares me that I'm 19 now and I'm still playing with my feelings wasting my time on someone that simply not worth it. I'm scared that when I grew older and wiser and more mature I might stop looking for love because I've had enough of fake ones these past years. This is a matter that concerns me so much but I can't talk to someone because no one understands. Why am I emotional now... xoxo 🙇